Inell's Fanfiction Archive

June 1999

Willow sat on the couch, shaking her head. "You don't know what you're saying. You don't love me."

Spike had to smile. She always surprised him. "Well, pet, you may need to tell my heart that."

"This isn't funny! Why are you saying that?"

Spike sometimes just didn't understand her. "I'm saying it because its true. I. love. you."

"What was April 12th?" Willow suddenly asked.

Spike's expression softened. "I just now realized that that was the day. I guess I was trying to deny it. When I heard the watcher say he found Dru, I had to admit my feelings to myself. April 12....that was the night we went to the park. Remember? The picnic....the talking...It was the first time I have been truly happy in years."

Willow smiled as she remembered that night. She'd forgotten about their midnight picnic. It had been fun, though all they had done was sit and talk the entire night until just before dawn.

"You enjoyed the time, but it wasn't me."

Spike groaned. "It was you. You actually listened when I spoke. We had the best conversations. Remember looking at the stars? The moonlight on your face was beautiful...The sparkle that was in your eyes...It was you. Accept it. I love you."

"Really?" Willow whispered.

"You are the most exasperating woman." he said. "Yes, really. You, Willow Rosenberg, make me forget that I am a soulless, murdering bastard. You cherish what little good is in me, and ignore the bad. You make me happy. YOU. No one else. It is not something that I want to lose."

Willow felt joy at his words. She didn't know if she could believe him, but he looked so sincere. She smiled at him. "Wow. Um....I don't think anyone has ever loved me....."

"Their loss" he said.

"Oh Spike....I felt so guilty because I really didn't want to find Dru and I was supposed to be helping you and....I love you too....I just couldn't stand the thoug..." her words were captured by his mouth.

His tongue invaded her mouth as he brought her body closer to his.

(She loves me!)

Willow gave herself over to the desire. (Thack can wait....) She moved her hands behind his blond head, pulling him down closer to her.