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"I am a selfish bitch."

Willow looked up and saw Xander staring behind her. She turned and looked at Buffy.

"I was completely wrong to say what I said. Forgive me?" The slayer begged.

Willow smiled. "Only if you forgive me."

Buffy pulled her friend into a hug. "I've missed you Wills. Promise we will not fight ever again." "Well....I can't guarantee that, but lets try to not wait a month before making up." Buffy sat down and said hi to Xander.

"So, Willow, how are you and Spike?"

"Things are great. Very good."

"I'm glad. I've missed alot. So, whats this I hear about houseguest?

How is that going?" Willow's face took on a thoughtful look. How was it going? Angel had been with them for three days. He and Spike had gradually began to rebuild a friendship that had died almost 100 years before. There was still some tension. She looked at her friend.

"Things are moving slowly but positively. I mean, they still have moments of growling. And I never realized what a control freak Angel was. He wants to know where I am 24/7. Spike is definitely not liking that. But, otherwise, they actually seem to be becoming friends."

"Really? That's good. Makes it easier for you to live with them." She took a bite from her hamburger. "So, Wills, have you seen Angel naked yet?" she asked, wiggling her eyebrows.

Xander choked on his soda. "UGH! Bad mental place. I think its time for me to leave. Glad you're back Buffster. Wills, tell Blondie to be ready. I'm going to kick his ass Sunday."

Buffy looked at her friend in alarm. 'What was that about?" Willow saw the distress on the slayer's face and started to laugh.

Willow stopped laughing at explained to her friend, "Every Sunday Xander comes over and spends the day. He and Spike play video games. Spike usually wins." She finished proudly.

"Let me get this straight, XANDER willingly spends time with Deadboy Junior?"

"Go figure huh? They bonded over playstation. They keep trying to beat each other. Poor Xan just can't win. Oh, and he calls Spike Blondie now. In fact, he asked me how Blondie and Deadboy were doing when I sat down earlier. Isn't that terrible? It sounds like some cartoon or something."

Buffy started to laugh. " I can see it. Angel and Spike make such an attractive couple. Tune in tomorrow to see who will be ALPHA MALE."

Willow joined in laughing, "Yes, will it be the Irish Soulboy or the British Bad Boy...Goddess, that's awful. I've really missed you Buffy. It had been tough not having a best friend to talk to."

"Me too Wills. So....speaking of your two vamps, have you compared attributes yet?"

"BUFFY! Geez....I love Spike. I could never compare him to anyone..."

"Uh huh..." "Besides, Angel's first night with us? Spike warned him off. Angel has been the big brother I've never wanted." She said rolling her eyes.

Buffy thought about it. "Does that mean you don't want him to be brotherly?"

Willow turned back to her lunch blushing. "Not really...it's just...." taking a deep breath she continued, "Spike told me about him and Angelus and their relationship. He really misses that. I thought that they might be able to get back to that place...it would be nice for Spike to have a friend. I mean, I have you guys, but all he had is me. I just don't want him to get bored."

"Oh Willow...he loves you. I could even see that. Wait, he told you about him and Angelus? WOW....Angel never would talk about it...from what I read in Giles' book, it was pretty intense. Are you sure you want Spike to go through that?"

"Oh Buffy...that was years ago. They have both grown so much. I know Spike still loves him. He hasn't said it, but I can tell. I'm not jealous. I want him to be happy. He doesn't think he can have us both. And Angel won't make a move no matter how bad he may want to, out of loyalty to me. He does want to, I can see it in his eyes. He really cares for Spike."

"Well, maybe they don't want a repeat of what happened before. Or maybe Spike isn't aware that you are quite so open to the possibility. I mean, it kind of surprises me. You seem rather possessive of him."

"I am...but this is Angel. Angel deserves some happiness."

"I agree with that. He had been unhappy for so many years. I've noticed that you are concentrating on a scenario of you and Angel sharing Spike." Willow nodded at her friend. "Haven't you thought of all three of you sharing each other?"

"Well...God, Buffy, how could I not? But Angel doesn't want me. He wants Spike. I'd just get in the way. Besides, I'm not sure if Spike would agree to that. He got mad when Angel hugged me, platonically. Could you imagine how he'd react if Angel and I.....well, you know."

Buffy had to laugh. "God, this is bad. You've been fucking one of the most feared vampires in all vampiredom for months, and you can't even say the word? Is vampiredom even a word? Anyway, Willow, you are amazing. Angel would be blind not notice you and want you. I think you are just oblivious to it. The question is do you want Angel?"

Willow looked at her friend and slowly nodded. "I do have the gift of sight, you know. He's a hottie. More so now that he isn't Brood Boy. He has such a wicked sense of humor. He is also extemely patient and so smart. And there are those shoulders...those eyes...those hands..."

"I get the point." Buffy said sharply. "Sorry, didn't mean to be so snappy."

"No, I shouldn't have gone on. I can tell you that I would only want Angel if I could keep Spike. There is no contest there. Spike is my mate. I just want Angel...and Spike. Oh Goddess..."

"Don't you all ready love them both?" Buffy asked quietly. Willow looked down at her food and thought about her friend's question.