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"I don't know what to do" Willow said, closing her eyes and letting her head fall back against the couch.

Faith leaned back against David, smiling slightly at her friend. "Red, you know what you want to do."

"What?' Willow asked, sitting up and staring wide eyed at Faith.

David laughed, "You want to fuck them both. Admit it, Red."

"Not you too" Willow said, her face flaming. "I don't either want them both."

"Whatever" Faith snorted, "Will. You are already sleeping with Graham. You are this close to sleeping with Spike. Don't deny that. I see the way you two watch each other. It's h-o-t. I know that Graham has to see it. I mean, I don't usually even notice things like that. He's much more perceptive than I am."

"You are trying to make me feel better? Remind me not to have you make me feel bad...suicide might look better."

"Faith is right. Any fool can see that you and Spike are heading for consumation in your freaky little friendship/claiming thing. Graham would probably be much more understanding if he were part of it." David said, smiling at the red faced girl.

"I can be friends with Spike without fucking him" she said defensively.

"No comment" Faith said, smirking.

"Well, I could if I had complete self control and no hormones...being blind might help too...no, I'd still hear that sexy voice whispering in my ear...." Willow trailed off as Faith laughed. "Ok. I admit it. I want Spike. What female wouldn't? But, I don't want to lose Graham. I couldn't live without him again...on the other hand, I can't lose Spike either. I thought I might die when he left me...."

"Face it, Red. You're fucked up. BUT, you have two hotties. Two is always better than one, in my book." Faith told Willow.

"Faith, I can't ask them both to have sex with me. I mean, Graham will think I'm nuts. Damn, what am I going to do?"

"Fuck them both. That's got my vote. Of course, part of it could be because I plan on forcing details from you."

"You're awful" David told Faith, nuzzling her neck. "I love it." He looked at Willow and smiled, "Willow, just follow your heart. It led them both to you for a reason. You've been trying to balance it all for three months. It's time to let go and see where everything falls."

"Thanks, D. I think I will do just that." Willow stood, knowing she was going to see Spike. It was time to make a move. She had to have him.

**********

Spike heard the knock and scowled. He knew it would be Willow. He wanted nothing more than to open the door and pull her into his arms. Could he do that? No. He had to sit around and wait for her to decide what to do while she shagged the bloody mortal. He hated being jealous of the boy, but he was.

Finally, he stood. He knew he wouldn't let her leave. He enjoyed her visits too much. He had been back three months. Three months of successfully avoiding the daft slutty slayer. Three months of having to be around the other slayer, knowing in his heart that she had saved him. Hating the debt he owed her.

Three months of falling more in love with Willow. The damn girl completed him more than Dru ever had. There was just something about her that fit. Of course, he knew she cared about him. He also knew that she was going to have to decide something soon. It was getting more and more difficult for them to be together. The desire was strong. It was evident to everyone around them, even her silly little mortal.

Spike frowned as he moved to the door. He had actually become friendly with her human. The guy wasn't so bad, for one of the soldiers. Things in the iniative had slowly started to fall apart. Graham's life had collapsed when he had learned of the deceitful practices his group engaged in. He had quit soon after that, getting out right before things had fallen apart.

Spike had to smile as he thought over his life these last months. He hung around with a half breed, a slayer, and two humans. Angel would laugh his nancy boy ass off if he ever heard of it. He was in love with a human, the best friend of two slayers.

Spike finally opened the door, smiling at the pissed off look in Willow's face. "Good evening, luv."

"What took you so long?" Willow demanded, her courage almost fleeing her as she looked at him.

"Sorry, I was tidying up" Spike remarked. "What can I help you with, pet?"

"This" Willow said, moving in and kissing him. She pulled back, shoving him into the room and slamming the door.

"What the bloody hell are you doing?" Spike demanded, thinking she must be cursed or something.

Willow smiled as she slid her hands under his shirt. She pulled it open, buttons flying. "Something I should have done months ago....making a memory, as a friend puts it."

Spike groaned as her hot mouth found his again. He didn't know what had gotten into her, but he wasn't complaining. He gave in to his desire finally, pulling her against him. He lifted her into his arms and carried her into the bedroom. It was time to make a memory.

**********

Faith looked up as Willow walked into the room. She smiled as she took in the bite on the girl's neck. "Someone got laid" she started to sing over and over. She was rewarded properly when the girl blushed bright red.

"Faith! Hush" Willow said, sitting down.

"What? Am I lying?" Faith demanded.

"No" Willow said, smiling slightly. "You aren't."

"Hot damn, girl. Talk. Was he good? Fuck that, was he big?"

"Yes and yes. That's all you're getting from me." Willow said. She leaned her head back and sighed, "What on Earth am I going to do now?"

"What's the prob?" Faith asked, taking a handful of chips from the bowl. "You got the vamp, you got the human. Best of both worlds."

"I can't lose either of them. Damn it. Why me? Why now? Sometimes I think my life is jinxed. Only an idiot would number one fall in love with two different men, and number two have sex with them both."

"Will, stop." Faith said. "Damn girl. You're young. You live on a hellmouth. Do what feels good and enjoy it while you can. Of course, I can see your problem."

"You can?" Willow said, looking at her in surprise.

"Hell yeah. You got two guys. Two possessive, jealous guys. You can't keep it up for long. The whole this one on this day etc thing. It won't work. You have two choices as I see it."

"What?" Willow asked, taking her own handful of chips. She was curious to know what Faith thought. The slayer was the only person she could really talk to about all this mess. And it was a mess. A mess that she had made....willingly.

"Well, you could choose one of them. Forever wonder if you made the right choice. Have doubts for the rest of your life. Always think what might have been if you had chosen the other...."

"Great" Willow said, grimacing. She didn't like that choice at all. "What's the other?"

Faith smiled, a wicked gleam in her eyes, "Get them to share you. At the same time. Forever live in sin with two hunks of male flesh acting out your every whim and desire. Not having to worry if you spend too much time with one because you have them both. Wild, kinky, hot sex around the clock with both of them...."

"Faith!" Willow said, starting to laugh. "You've given this some thought haven't you?"

"Hell yeah. Wish I was in your shoes, in a way. But, I'd probably exhaust them." She wiggled her eyebrows, making Willow laugh louder.

"Well, selfishly, I love that choice. But, I don't think it is very fair to either of them. Besides, I'd still have to deal with the jealousy issue."

"Give it a few days, Red. Think about it. Do you want to choose one of them or both of them? You're the thinker. Think. Just don't do it right now. We have places to go and people to see. And, on that note, are you ready to see a movie?"

Willow nodded, her mind thinking about Faith had said, "Yeah...let's go."

**********

"Help" Willow said simply.

David looked at the redhead and smiled. "If I felt like being coy, I'd ask with what."

"David! Please." Willow said, sighing.

David laughed, "Ok. OK. I take it Faith wasn't able to provide any big answers, right?"

"She suggested a menage a trois."

"That's my girl" David said, still amazed that he had found love with a slayer. Love? No....lust. That's all it was, he reminded himself. "Well, Red. I hate to say it, but that seems like a good idea."

"Not you too. David, my life is not some kinky late night Showtime movie. This is my life. I just don't know what to do."

David looked at her, turning serious. "Willow, I can't give you the answer. I doubt there is a perfect answer. I do know you love them both. I can see that. They both love you too. You should have seen Graham that fall....after he couldn't find you? He almost went nuts. My sort of death was the thing that got him out of it. And Spike? When Faith and I found him, it wasn't pretty. He was wasting away. They both love you very much."

Willow groaned, "Why? I mean, I'm not that pretty. I'm a nerd. I shouldn't have two gorgeous guys wanting me. This is almost worse than not having anyone."

David laughed, "Willow, you are such a riot. You're beautiful and smart and funny and kind and honest. Why wouldn't they want you? I hate to say it, but someone could end up really hurt by all this."

"I know....Damn it, I don't want to hurt either of them. It's more than sex. Though, that is nice of course...." She turned red and glared at him when he laughed, "Shut up, Half Breed. Anyway, I love being with them. I can't imagine not having them both in my life. I just don't want to mess it up."

"You know me philosophy Will. Make your memories now while you can. You can't live your life in fear and regrets. Make a choice and stick with it. But, make sure it is what you really want. You can't go back."

"Whta do you think I should do?" Willow asked, trusting him.

"If I were you....well, I have an idea." David said, smiling.

"Tell me" she said. He proceeded to do just that.

**********

Spike shifted uncomfortably, his blue eyes watching the human. He glanced at the clock, wondering where Willow was. She had rang him up asking him to meet her at the slayer's at dusk. He'd been waiting for a half hour. It made him rather nervous when he saw the other man in her life waiting also. He avoided looking at the boy, hoping this wasn't what he feared it was.

Graham wanted to scream. He had a very good idea why Willow had asked to meet him. Seeing Spike only confirmed it. She was going to choose. He hated the fear that went through him at the idea. He was going to lose her....just when he found her again. He took a deep breath, looking at the blonde vampire. It surprised him that Spike seemed so antsy. He knew there was a chance she would choose him, but he had seen the way she looked at the vampire. She loved him. He sat down, looking at the door when he heard it opening.

Willow walked into the room, her face determined. She was following David's advice. She had to agree that it was the most sensible plan she had heard yet from either of her friends. She just hoped it worked the way he thought it would. She didn't want to lose either of them.

"Hello" she said softly, smiling.

"Evening pet" Spike said, feeling more calm now that she was there.

"Willow" Graham greeted, his deep voice sending shivers down her spine.

"I'm sure you are curious as to why I wanted to meet with you both" Willow started as she sat down.

The men looked at each other then back at her. They both knew why.

"I want to say now that I love you both so much. I know I'm being selfish by loving two men, but I can't stop what I feel, no matter how hard I've tried." Willow took a deep breath, "So, I have come up with two plans."

"Plans?" Graham said, curious. She hadn't chosen one of them yet.

"Let's hear them, luv" Spike said, sitting back, a look of concentration crossing his face.

"Ok....from what I can tell, I have two choices. First, I can leave you both. Not see either of you....because I can't choose. I've tried and tried...It's impossible."

"You aren't leaving both of us" Spike said, hating the idea of not having her somewhere in his life.

"What's the second choice?" Graham asked.

Willow took a second to calm her nerves, "I'm going away for Spring Break...back to Eventide. I would like for you to both come with me....I would like for us to come to some sort of arrangement that makes us all happy...."

"Both of us?" Graham said, frowning.

Spike just looked at her, his eyes steady.

Willow sighed, "It's the only thing I can think of. I don't want to lose one of you because I chose the other....choosing is impossible. SO, I'm leaving it up to you. You both have to agree. Either way, I'm leaving for two weeks. I can come back alone and not see either of you again, or I can come back with both of you. I know I'm a selfish person, but I can't give either one of you up."

"So you risk losing us both?" Spike asked quietly.

"If it comes to that...." she said softly, her voice shaking with fear at the idea of losing them.

"Fuck" Graham said softly, closing his eyes. He had been prepared to lose her to Spike, but he didn't know if he could agree to what she was suggesting to keep her. He looked at her, "When do we have to know?"

"I leave for Eventide tonight. I can give you an hour. Faith and David are both coming also...that way I have company if I have to go alone..." She saw the uncertainty in their eyes and smiled wistfully. David may have been wrong. But, she had to make her move. She couldn't live forever not ever making up her mind. "We're meeting at the dorm. Buffy and Riley already left for Miami so it's safe. I love you both." She said before she stood and left.

As she shut the door, she let her breath out. Tears were in her eyes as she again wondered if she had done the right thing. She moved down the stairs to where Faith and David were waiting. Without speaking, she got in the car. Faith looked at David, her eyes concerned. He just smiled and winked. He had no doubts that the men wouldn't want to lose Willow.

**********

Willow looked at her watch and the back at Faith and David. They were watching her with sympathy. She took a deep breath, "They aren't coming. Let's go."

Faith nodded, getting in the car. She waited until everyone was settled before driving off. "Sorry Red."

"It's ok. I always knew in my mind that I couldn't have them both. At least I have two weeks to get over them."

David looked at her, his eyes sad, "This is my fault. I shouldn't have told you to make them choose for you."

"It's not your fault. It's no one's fault. I stupidly fell in love with two men. I'd rather lose them both than try to balance my life without committing to just one. I am going to miss them though."

"They're morons" Faith said simply. "Just remember, Red. You have us. We love ya."

Willow laughed softly, "Thanks Faith. So, who picked out the music for the drive?"

"I did" David said, smiling. "You know how terrible Faith's taste is."

"Bastard" Faith said, smiling. "Hey wait. I chose you didn't I?"

"Taste in music, slayer mine." He said, putting in a cassette. He hated seeing his friend unhappy but at least she could move on now. He did know two men he was going to beat up when they returned though. He was going to enjoy the front seat while he could. Half the drive would be made durnig the day. Because of his half breed status, he wasn't affected by direct sunlight, but it itched like crazy. He avoided it whenever possible. Of course, knowing Faith's driving, they'd be there in half the time. He smiled as he looked at his lover. She was doing her best to take Willow's mind off the damn idiots she loved. Poor Willow.

*****************

Willow leaned on the balcony, breathing in the salty air. It was almost like coming home, going back to Eventide. So much had happened here. It had been too long. She heard Faith and David bickering in the kitchen below her. Their voices drifting up from the open window. Those two belonged together. Soon, she knew she would hear silence as they began to make up. Wrinkling her nose, she decided she wouldn't eat on the kitchen table.

A slight breeze blew in, ruffling her hair. She watched the waves in the moonlight the sound surrounding her. She was brave. She could get over them. It might take her entire life, but she would do it. She sighed as she moved back inside, closing the balcony door behind her. She had an impulse to go to the water. She wanted to feel it on her bare feet. She smiled as she looked into the kitchen and saw Faith and David pressed against the wall. Moving outside, she made her way to the ocean.

Willow looked at her footprints in the sand. She watched as the water drifted onto the shore and washed them away. There was no trace that she had even been standing there now. A lot like her life, it seemed. Things that seem to be a part of her easily washed away. Well, not easily. She turned to head back to the house.

Remembering how she had last seen Faith and David, she stopped and faced the ocean again. She couldn't be around sappy sweet love at that moment. It would just remind her what she had willingly given up, again. She sat down on the sand, her hands going behind her. She knew she had done the right thing. Why did it hurt so bad?

She couldn't choose either of them, so she had lost them both. Her life sucked pretty much. How was she going to go back and see them everyday without feeling the same love and desire? She watched the moon, smiling at the birds playing in the air above her. At least something was happy. Hearing a noise behind her, she looked up. She froze, her eyes wide.

"Hi. I'm Graham. Miller. I live next door. During the summer that is."

Willow smiled at his words. He remembered their first exchange. "I'm Willow. I'm visiting my aunt for the summer...well, the spring. I was hurt."

Graham cocked his head to the side, his eyes on her, "You were hurt?"

"Yeah...I fell in love with two wonderful men and lost them both."

"You didn't lose anyone, pet" Spike said softly, moving to kneel beside her. He brought his hand up to her face and brushed her hair away. "You left without us, luv."

Graham moved to sit on the sand, taking her hand in his. He and Spike had had a very good chance to talk on the drive up to Eventide from Sunnydale. Neither of them wanted to lose Willow. He personally had no idea what might happen, but he had to have Willow in his life. Without her, it wasn't a life. "We had to pack. An hour wasn't enough time...."

Willow felt tears on her cheek as she squeezed both of their hands, "Goddess, I love you both so much...."

"Love you too Red" Spike said, his eyes burning into hers. He kissed her softly, hating having thought he had lost her. He wanted to keep her. If that meant sharing with the human, fine. Graham wasn't that bad, for a mortal. He could adjust. Hell, he was in love with the slayer's best friend...both the slayer's best friend. Angel would have a laughing attack when he found out.

"I won't lose you, Willow. Not again. I love you" Graham said quietly. He kissed her swiftly. "It's getting cold. Why don't we take this to my house. We can get warm and talk."

Willow nodded, standing. She held both their hands firmly as they headed up the beach to Graham's house. They could talk and maybe she would finally figure out what to do.

**********

Willow walked into the living room, her arms around herself. To be Spring, the air was cool and crisp. She watched as Graham began to build a fire. Nice and cozy, she thought to herself. She turned and faced her lovers, uncertainty in her green eyes.

Spike sighed, running a hand through his short blonde hair. He sat on the couch, still not believing the situation he was currently in. He was about to willingly ask another bloke to join him and Willow. He knew in his heart it was the only way to keep her. He just had to find the strength to ask for that favor.

Graham sat down, lost in his own thoughts. If he entered into this triangle with Willow and Spike, would that make him gay? He had no problems with what people would say about them, but he wanted to know for himself. He had never touched another man. Never had any desire to, in fact. But, there was something about Spike that was getting to him. He had noticed on the drive to Eventide. It wasn't exactly an attraction but it was something that he couldn't explain. He didn't like not understanding his own mind.

"So" Willow said softly, breaking the silence. She saw Graham watching Spike curiously, something different in his eyes. She noticed Spike looking at her and then glancing at Graham. Could she do this? She had known all along what she was building up to, but, now that it was time, she was uncertain and a bit scared. What if it ended up worse than before?

Spike started to speak but was cut off by Graham. "Willow, I love you. I have since that summer we sat in this very room and the candle light danced across your face. If it were possible, I'd give you the moon and the stars...Damn, that sounds rather Hallmarky doesn't it?" Graham grinned sheepishly, "What I mean is that I'd do anything to keep you in my life. So, knowing what I know, I have something to ask you, Spike."

Spike watched him carefully, not sure where the human was going with this. "What?"

"Will you join me and Willow? Make love to her with me there, I guess I should say" Graham broke off, his courage running out. He felt as though he should be getting ready to guest on Jerry Springer now. But, it did feel right. He knew it was the only way to keep Willow. He looked at Spike, his gaze steady.

Spike smiled slightly. The mortal had balls, he'd admit. He had assumed it would be him doing the asking. He hadn't thought the human, Graham he corrected himself, would ask. He saw Willow look at him, her eyes full of love and lust. Sighing, he made a pained face, "I don't know, mate. What would my daddy say if he knew I was living in sin with two mortals?"

Willow smiled, seeing the laughter enter Spike's eyes. She let out her breath, knowing is answer.

Spike laughed at Graham's confused expression, "Fuck yes, I'll join you. I don't want to lose her either, you wanker."

"Oh" Graham smiled, looking at Willow. He took her hand, watching as she took Spike's. He took the vampire's other hand, sealing the bargain. They were a couple..well, a trio he guessed. Damn, he was already getting confused. "What now?"

Willow leaned over and kissed him then kissed Spike. She smiled shyly, "We could finalize the agreement....I missed you both...."

"You heard the lady. Upstairs, my friend" Spike said, swooping Willow into his arms. Graham laughed as he followed them up the stairs and into the master bedroom. He knew as he walked inside that his life would never be the same after this night. He smiled as he closed the door. Things could be worse.

**********

"Someone's been naughty" Faith taunted, using her earlier words to Willow.

Willow sat on the sofa and smiled. "Damn right."

"You got them both, didn't you? You little vixen you." David said, smiling as he pulled Faith onto his lap.

"Guess they couldn't resist my charms" Willow said, laughing. The night had been amazing. They had all three connected in such a fantastic way. It had been poetry in motion, to borrow a well known phrase. She had never felt so loved as when they had touched her.

"Who could?" Faith asked, yawning. "So, did the earth move and all that bull shit?"

"Spun in circles" Willow said, smiling as she remembered the previous night in vivid detail.

"Luv, you aren't going to run and tell the nasty slayer every detail are you?" Spike asked, whining as he walked into the room. He plopped on the couch beside her, kissing her deeply.

"Nasty slayer? Who saved your ass, Blondie?" Faith asked, humor in her eyes.

"I am so never going to hear the end of that, am I?" Spike asked, rolling his eyes.

"Nope" Faith said, sticking her tongue out at him.

"Could be worse" Graham said, walking into the room. He ran a hand through his hair, hiding a yawn. "She could have left you to rot."

"I refuse to thank a slayer" Spike said, his eyes watching his newest lover. Graham caught his glance and smiled letting him know what had happened between them had not disgusted him in the early morning sun.

"Boys. We have company. Be nice." Willow said, kissing Graham. She felt Spike's hand slide up her thigh and gasped. "SPIKE!"

"What?" he said, smiling innocently. "You said to be nice...I can be very nice, Red."

"Damn girl. You've got your hands full now" Faith said, laughing as she leaned against David. "So, your horny ones, where are we eating tonight?"

"Pancakes!" Willow, David and Graham all said, laughing at each other. Faith and Spike exchanged a look before rolling their eyes and smiling.

**********

Willow moved into Spike's kiss, her hands on his chest as the kiss deepened. She felt Graham move behind her, his lips on her back. She whimpered as Spike plunged into her, adjusting herself so that she took more of him into her. She felt hands on her breasts and Graham's chest against her back.

Willow sat up, riding Spike. She tightened around him causing him to groan. Smiling, she moved her head back to kiss Graham. His fingers twisted her nipples as Spike's hand found its way to her clit. He twisted, causing her to pull free from Graham and cry out in pleasure. Graham chuckled as he moved his cock behind her.

Spike stopped thrusting, waiting for Graham to make his move. He felt the human's cock slide into Willow's ass. He waited until the boy was completely in before beginning to move again. He saw Willow's face twist with passion as she began to ride him and push back against Graham. He continued to tease her clit, her fingernails scraping his nipples and drawing blood. He began to move faster as the scent of his own blood wafted over him.

Graham moved slowly at first, knowing she was stretched. He rained kisses over her neck as his hands continued to knead and play with her breasts. He could feel Spike through the thin membrane seperating their thrusting cocks. He sunk deep inside her, hearing her moan her pleasure. He came with a grunt, his seed spilling into her ass. He heard her cry out her own release as she continued to ride Spike's hard cock. He pulled out of her, falling to the bed exhausted.

Spike arched up several times, he continued to torment her clit wanting her to cum one more time. He held his own release off until he heard her cry out, her head falling to his chest. He groaned as he sent his seed into her, his teeth biting into her shoulder. He licked the blood from her as she collapsed against him.

"Sleepy" Willow said, smiling at them both. She pushed the hair out of her face as she leisurely took them both in. "Mine."

"Yours luv" Spike said, chuckling. No doubt about it.

"Yours Willow" Graham said, kissing her. "I don't think I can move."

"Quit whining, Soldier boy" Spike said, smiling. "I could use some sleep though."

"Yeah...sleep is good" Willow said, yawning. She nestled between her lovers, one arm around Spike as her body molded against Graham. It had taken her awhile, but she was finally where she was meant to be. She drifted off to sleep, both of her lovers following her.



THE END